2024
ZICK: FOUNDATION [27/01/24]
ZICK: FOUNDATION [27/01/24]
Characters are built surrounding these foundations, and the story flows along them.
a. Bloodlines
Bloodlines are seperated into to two; Andaraka (darkness) and Prakasa (light)
the cause of this is due to darkness's collapsed on itself-- creating light. That light scattered, some into stars, and some into glowing dust.
Before that event, darkness was the ever-expanding landscape. Darkness has been living with their own energy and lived as beings with inhumane forms.
The stars that scattered, evolved into life. they became human, and as curiosity is born with humans, they discovered the darkness that surround them were alive.
Darkness(Andaraka) acted upon first, to make a rule with the creator of Prakasa (Jiwa), to never let any of her creations kill the darkness.
ZICK: ANDRATHINGS [02/02/24]
The doctor is one of ana's excellent servants. although he is smart, he does not have a heart. his only love of collecting, to serve as memento or as 'prizes' for himself.
has a twisted moral of objectifying or dehumanizing people inferior. gains their trust, dissects them, and takes their truth.
his dreamscape consists of subjects pinned and taxidermies
and varieties of collections; from body parts to mundane everyday things. set in a very brutalism interior. if you think of it its like a basement i guess....
i guess one thing i like about thinking about this is about how both jett and andra are 'tainted'. like. in some ways. however jett puts up a facade, whereas andra is a whole disgusting being and is embracing. like a bit of sawa nakamura. i guess ana's servants reflect some of ana's influenced traits.
ZICK: CONSUMABLE SHAPING [21/03/24]
im really just wondering how long it would take for me to actually produce sober. then again, i dont know if im actually serious. when is exactly the 'start' and 'finish'?
here's what i think sober would be converted to as a consumable; seperated from each's purpose and content,
the foundation is the prakasa-andaraka/this foundation is called 'prakreasi'. this includes the birth of revolution caused by the misuse of art, [1] which includes ana and jiwa's union and ana's change in perception due to jiwa creating 'prakasa'. i think this could be better converted into a visual experience. dialogue is not important in this part, but probably a narrator? i guess it could be a picture video.
So we're getting right on to the archivist-variant/pralestari first to show its purpose: oversee fate and preserve every creation, whatever form it takes so that passion never dies. pralestari jett was born to be proof of neutrality, and serves as a vessel to showcase the consequence of any rule broken. i think it would be cool if it were to be a game where you (Pralestari Jett pov?) classify what's art and what's not--while maintaining universes by "donating" pieces or items to sort of 'console' them to avoid breaking fates... what's this game category called again? management simulator? i guess. so yeah. that sounds cool!
Written for Toyhouse bios
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ANA
Ana is a refined woman with ridiculously high standards and makes it hard to resist due to her alluring appearance.
(artistically and anatomically) experimental, fearless, and curious, her ability to be able to
control, warp other’s dreamscapes to her interests makes her unstoppable and seemingly incapable
of being marked down as a criminal. Because its just a dream.
On the surface, she cares deeply of her child(ren), giving each of them a purpose
and raising them to strictly follow that path. Under the hopeful intentions,
Ana is considered manipulative, egoistic, and solipsistic, truthfully. To hide
those, she appears sexy and elegant.
Her innate desire is to become everything. Man, animal, dead, dust, interstellar
creature, celestial object, fruit, but what she wanted the most, was to be a caring
mother. To have a child from her own flesh and blood, and to see what really
results from her existence. This leads to the birth of Harap, her son.
design key elements:
a. She's always smiling.
b. Her eyes are marked with a tear on her ey ebags. This is not a tattoo or a scar;
It's merely a design choice to differeniate eyes from others.
c. One of her eyes is odd, drawn as a scribble.
d. The flower on her head is a 'bunga kembang sepatu' or known as a chinese hibiscus/mallowrose.
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Jett
an outgoing, social old-fashioned loverboy who used to rock. He is admired by others for his friendliness and
distinct silhouette from others. he appeals to everyone, and yet there's always something in the
back of his mind that makes him think he's alienated despite everything. sometimes full of himself
because he thinks he's got it the worst. this causes a lot of conflict involving selfishness and
invalidating other's trauma. but that behaviour only happened in the past.
has some detachment towards his identity, somewhere in the line of being a 'fraud' to everyone.
besides that, he used to have a passion for writing(fanfiction) and composing songs.
pretty much lived in the internet from a young age. he's grown to have a wide range of taste in
music(generally rock) and fiction media because of that.
his traits as he becomes an adult with responsibilities, he handles things fine.
he can stand up for himself. what's important to him is to balance between being
'himself' and being a dog to society.
Fun Facts:
- If he were a dog, he'd be a german shepherd.
- Used (keyword) to compose songs using Vsynths like Vocaloid or UTAU. his music style resembles that of Abu-Se-KenP's.
- Absolutely nuts over sea food
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CHLORIS
The older sister of Jett. Oftentimes mistaken as hotheaded and silent, but is really just tired
and bullshits her way through. always found unfocused and unmannered, Chloris used to be forced
to join many extracurriculars in point to make her somewhat more successful than her mother.
Ballet, Dokcil, Robotics...
This causes her to think that she has to be productive all the time to not disappoint
her mother for making all the extracurricular she goes through go to waste.
that's why her mother suggested going to either go to med school or engineering.
Chloris went to being a surgeon. joining the hundreds of operation meetings, department drama, and consulting with the hundreds of
patients facing their cries, burnt her out and now only capable of enhancing her skills further as a surgeon.
Chloris's relationship with Jett is somewhat. hard to explain. you could say it's enviness--Jett's treatment by his mother is different from Chloris.
Jett was treated with more freedom(regret after mother realizing that she pushed Chloris too hard) thus by this freedom, Jett didnt feel like he's as good as Chloris.
Even though their mother never compared them to each other, Jett constantly thinks he's not good enough for his family.
Making himself force to abandon his passion of writing/composing and went to accounting.
Fun Fact
- Chloris has a discomfort towards looking at fast food, especially hamburgers. despite looking unmannered, she's very mindful about eating in front of others.
Chloris also has a small appetite, and doesn't eat much.
referring to the pelestari cahaya pv
born from my thoughts, all collided.
never seen before, light bursted and scattered outwards to the endless, each carrying a life.
stars and dust lives atop the void.
the source of light, i held so dear. it was like my own child.
but every finger pointed at me, as i was a curse.
as if i littered the world with passion.
my own was taken away.
One of the scattered light (prakasa) come awoke.
never seen before, a human with passion alike to its creator.
born with curiosity, he went to see the others alike.
it was as twice as his size, yet it was shining dimly.
and trapped, frozen from hatching. it was stopped from something uncertain.
"so the newborn has awoken."
"this passion should belongs to me, it is only fair aligned with my beauty."
i felt cold in my behalf.
--pralestari--
(closes book) and i grew to watch over all the light that is born.
so that none are taken away, lost.
but of course, not every life can be saved.
i worked too hard to prevent that from happening
and overlooked everything else.
one life killed, one life loved, one life led, one life stood.
life is infinite, and as long as they live, this place stays up.
today is one of mine's birthday,
one life that i look forward to grow.
i wish there was a way to meet him in person.
he may know who i am, he may know what he did, he may know what he means to exist.
so i am making something in hopes that he knows how proud i am of him.
once a few times i get to think about chloris being jiwa’s daughter and not at the same time. its just fucking horrible isnt it. your daughter gets modified by your very own enemyand you have to pretend that shes fine and want to genuinely rebond with her but theres this big wall-
then you have to take care of your son thats not trusting you because they dont believe in the freedom you gave him and you are watching him slowly kill himself and you are trying so hard not to dwell on it and youre genuinely trying to be better towards both of them-
jiwa how does it feel to have your daughter stolen to become the world’s proof of change and slowly becoming unintelligible as she gets worse and worse?
jiwa how does it feel to have your son be stolen, trapped in the way you used to be and it tunrs out your son caused a cylical disaster and your son could never forgive himself for it and kills himself for being human?
horrible. depressing. continue living alongside the dreamscape and seperate it from reality but it feels so blurry. it IS realbut its not supposed to be in our daily lives. They know its what they feel internally, they know what they look like internally, but its not justifiable
ZICK: LIVELY EXPECTATIONS [20/08/34]
CONTENT WARNING: Description of pregnancy and child birth, mentions of abortion
hmmmmmmmmmm
ZICK: BUANG MUKA [20/09/24]
2023
SHROT: ICEBREAKER! [07/01/23]
So since An doesn't really have any sad or tragic backstory as how it's just them living their life with fun until
yeah, Shei
Shei was something they have been fascinated with, seeing Shei as a strong person, a cold and mistaken heart, but has the kindest to hold their hand together and put out th music as their resembling identity...
An knows Shei likes konstantin, and it brings comfort to her. So...it's just An staying silent unrequited
An gives Shei a LOT of gifts. and if Shei gives gifts back it becomes little trinkets they would decorate. Just wanted to show the heartbreaking times is when An remembers all their effort for Shei but accepted the fate anyways.
For example, An wears perfectly matching outfits and does it to comfort Shei around, even trying to go to shei's taste(still in a soft color) but something that would make Shei compliment or smile.
Another one, An crochets swaters or scarves at night everytime usually at fall-winter for Shei to feel warmth and hope that it reminds Shei of AN
An extremely falls in love with Shei's guitar skills, combining with their unexpectable loud and explosive style, they try to go beat alongg with it-even when it means to soften their usual style (it is hard actually)
+An has a litte diary from when they were young, and the contents are filled up with very important things to them. It grows to become a Shei dump-- All about Shei's interest and discomforts, every little things in note. Whenever they feel a little giddy, they sing as if lyrics of the writings in their diary
So like all the sweet affectionate memories flooding through their mind while An watches Konstantin n SHei kissing, at the winter, at christmas, at Konstantin's birthday.
Since it isn't their birthday, after all.
Sweet affectionate memories are just their hard working supporting love in An's POV, but in She's POV, It's just a friendly comforting memory.
(But they knew acting out on their jealousy is useless...so she just smiles...)
An watches from afar, shaky breaths in the snow cold winter, gripping on their handmade scarf, as the view sickens her mind...slowly...heavy...and blurs in their vision. Then all of that dissapears, as they greet the hurt infront of them with their usual smile.
[followed with this art vvv]
ZICK: WHAT ARE DREAMSCAPES? [16/07/23]
imagine it as being the placce where your inner self lives when you sleep. Dreamscapes are built to represent one's past, emotional state, and desires.
I mean in short, i guess technically it is llike an alternate universe of yourself. an alternate universe where you are playing a role in the appearance of your 'true self'.
for example, jett's dreamscape form aka true self, is portrayed as a crumbled hollow porcelain statue. the 'true form' of characters are mainly based on metaphors and symbolism and it depends whether you're an Andaraka/Prakasa. Since Andaraka in its nature are mostly fantasized animals, Prakasa is a light that bends.
one's true form doess not have memories of thingss out of the dreamscape, but a person can remember what happened in their dreamscapes. (i doont even know if thats necesssar!! But just take it)
when you sleep and become conscious in the dreamscape, ou dont have memories of the real life. But your real life consciousnesss can remember what happened in the dream, and mostly, people who experience dreamscapes dont forget what their dreams are.
Dreamscapes are mainly a place to reflect on things. or simply a calm personal place, but it depends on each individual's personalities...
I have this picture from 2024 of some dreamscape creatures (certifiedly outdated, but im just not in the mood to redesign stuff againhshfj
yum
ZICK: WHO IS ANA? [16/07/23]
with a fortune, ana has the unfortunate ability to control other's dreamscapes and what occurs in them.
she has broad curiosity with experiments, and wishes to use other's dreamscapes as where her experiments take place.
She could control your dreams to tell the truth, to scare you, to guide you into a path she deems intesting, for her own entertainment.
while she's also a mother to her daughter Harap, and a mother(caretaker) to many young orphans, her goal is to make every children useful for others and to make sure they are all working efficiently, taught with many lessons to strengthen their manners and to make sure every single move is correct--she cant let a single mistake be seen. what she doesn't get is maybe that they are still young? and they're human children, too. But she's never appeared to be significantly 'bad' to children. Children actually admire her and love her, but they just don't know her true nature. i mean they shouldn't lol
She was always raised to believe in justice and perfection, which led her to appear 'heartless' for not having sympathy nor empathy towards people that are suffering. She will always defends the truth and law, no matter what.
ana also is conscious of the existence of crowns. due to the realization, she thought it was a hassle for there to be more than one crown. so she decided to try and see what would happen if she were to obtain all of the crown's purposes and give it all for herself to rule, singlehandedly
so far she's managed to capture one crown, which is Vent. She continues to remake him to be human, and gave him a purpose, which is to see how much humans can write until they reach their limit.
ZICK: JETTVENT FIRST MEET [16/07/23]
before they met each other in person, they never realized that the were each other's pen pals. Jett and Vent are both passionate in writing poetry, however it's been long ago since Jett last wrote. He's taken an interest in reading fanfiction since then. Vent continues to study linguistics and has published a lot of his works publicly.
How the first met each other in real life, was not because they asked to meet, but it was pretty much arranged. Jett used to have a band during college, and as they were searching for a more proper lyricist, vent was introduced.
They both immediately took an interest in discussing their favorite literature medias, novels, poetry...and realized they are their pen pals. funny...
Then eventually, Vent proved himself worth of Jett's trust, and the shortly confessed their feelings for each other.
during this time, they already have graduated together.
Problems arise when they realize this relationship can't be kept forever, as Jett decided to set their distances and completely avoid each other for the sake of their reputation's safety.
until someone faked a suicide note; claiming that it was Vent's note. due to this, Jett immediately ran to Vent's place, causing him shortness of breath, all for it to be fake.
worried as he busted his door open, Vent was shocked to see Jett again. He would be happy to see him, but the state Jett was in was nearing death.
after a week, Jett became conscious again--in exchange for the loss of his recent memories, especially about ever being close to Vent.
After he recovered fully, Jett met Vent again--without knowing that much of him besides that he's an amazing writer. He wanted to get closer to Vent, not realizing it was the second time they get close again like this.
due to this, Vent felt uneasy. The reason is that when he thinks of pre-coma Jett, it's quite an unflavorful relationship, and Jett's bitter personality is what comes to mind. and it's hard to change it ever since.
Jett confessed his feelings again to Vent, and he decided to give him a second chance. and the both agreed to live in one room together to save their savings. during this time, they already have jobs.
the relationship only got worse, because it's confusing for both of them. Why Vent is ignoring him, and what Vent should do...
He made an awful decision by coping with alcohol every single night, which eventually made Jett worry enough to pick him up and drive him home every single time. Jett was patient waiting for Vent to talk about the problem himself...but as the world would not allow it, it unfolds in a dream they share.
[2025 NOTE: every mention of 'dremscape' is referring to the Dampak Lingkungan Terhadap Karya-Karya yang Memiliki Hatidoc
ZICK: PITYDEATH [02/09/23]
Vanilla is a therapist, she gather and view people's emotions, feelings, and knows the inside of others. If a reaper has a scythe to take a soul, then there is someone to bury the dead. To bury the soul....
With a shovel!
It is also a symbol that Vanilla buries her own emotions and views of this world and sacrifices it for her job as a therapist, focusing more to her client's selfishness.
Lapis is to take a soul for treasure, and Vanilla is to bury her own treasure and soul.
Lapis is as if the reaper uses a scythe and as well take people's money that can be referred to souls, right?
I totally know An's gonna be an axe because of how russian people associated with the snow or harsh winter and how it connects to the...freezing heartbreaking scene ^^
Konstantin could be a big cross. Ben could be a dagger. Shei should be a keris or any stylish daggers
So like this 'jett' is from the bloodline of 'light' (i will not further detail what it means, but it's a bloodline only for humans) and vent is the bllodline of 'dark' which is specially for monsters-related or inhuman beings that lives in different places, as for vent is the sea, and i imagine An somewhere in the polars.
There's one concrete rule that 'light' kind can never kill or exterminate the 'dark' beings, so that's why those two at the first place has never really communicated or made a relationship before in fear that if they build a connection, emotional problems will be set to happen.
That is, of course, jett and vent who feels romantic of the other, and so on, but since the jett pirate problem, vent was killed and thrown into the sea, Unconciously the concrete rule was broken, and it results in a curse , 'the eternal love and destined death' , where they will alwaays fall romanticly for each other, and then vent will definetely die at the end in every era or timeline
ZICK:jettvent timeline [01/11/23]
this is mostly rewritten
- Met at a fiction-sharing network online; showing interest in each other's original works
- Becomes penpals and started sending each other letters
- Went into college and as Jett's band needed a lyricist/poet, Vent assigned himself to work with jett (They didn't realize they've met beafore since they used usernames for the letters)
- Realized their commons and began to draw closer to a confession
- Distance due to fear of stained reputation/rumor spreading around
- Andra faked Vent's death causing Jett to run his lungs out to see Vent and ends up blacked out in Vent's arms
- Jett loses any memory of viewing Vent as someone close and personal and searchs for him
- Jett found him again and Vent isnt sure if things will go well
- Instead of communicating Vent drown his sorrows with drinking, and it concerns Jett
- Jett's built up anger explodes as they fight inside the car and recklessly drives around then boom
- um. dreamscape arc
- after that theyre ok. still have issues communicating but its better
- not gonna last long btw
ZICK:ENVY [26/11/23]
jett often feels academically distant (thus underestimating himself and hasjealousy over chloris’s success,) because jett was treated with more freedom. he shouldbe grateful but..hm
chloris was treated with more force to be the future punggung kesuksesan/ekonomi keluarga as a dokter, but she didnt fight against it. she doesnt have any othr hobbies, so she went with it. however after jiwa realized that she was forcing her child to be better than her instead of-
them having their own choice, jiwa stopped forcing things to jett. Jett should be grateful for the freedom he was given with, right? but justru because of how free he is, he didnt have the ‘push’ jiwa did to chloris to make her success, thus jett feelig stuck and useless…
| thats kinda why he stopped writing and agak maksa masuk akuntasi. so he can atleast get a ‘real job’ (which is…yikes, tbh)
ZICK: RELATIONSHIP CHART [03/12/23]
its really messy. andra isnt apart of my favorites at this time lawl
SHROT:FASHION SENSE [04/12/23]
Roy dolls himself up, extremely bad. If to compare with An, Roy has the upper hand of styling. It is never simple, never common, it is always unique. Everyday you'd find the patterns of his accescories different or the color arranged is always more than one spectrum. But it always has the same feeling you have when you see his fashion:To cover himself,
And it is obvious, but people doesn't take it quite literally. Roy covers himself and hides behind all the decorative colors and style, just to think he would look a bit human or doesnt wants to be seen as a simple pale 'monster'
About An, she is always trying to be pretty and cute, but its never too much. It's because An wants to be seen as someone natural, yet able to show herself up to satisfy other people. It's more like people would know despite whatever aesthetic she comes up with: "Oh, it's An!" something like that...It's merely because An's use of fashion is to make people love them despite whatever they turn out to be in any day (thus why they fell in love with shei that seems to always care for An)
they are both people who tries to blend in to the society (Roy, to be human. And An, to satisfy people.) and their attempts at trying to love (rom, platonic, or familial) doesn't seem to be going the right path as what they expect to be.
SHROT: Social Skills [04/12/23]
Social Skills
AN is an act of service...buddy! So she would actually bring up a conversation that could bring up people up to talk, as she has many friends with variety of differences. But an doesn't talk about themselves much except how they like cute clothes and shei lol, maybe something general but not that deep.
The other way, Roy actually doesn't bring up conversation very well, it's more likely he will bring up a trouble of mischief and it will be...the topic of the day. It's because he thinks it's stupid to talk anything in genuinely or deeply 'cause it will affect him, and he prefers to do actions or small surprising things to interact with people. If he ever interacts seriously in a long conversation, it is only because he wants something in matter.
Konstantin: he's a motorcycle guy. Wants to own a Subaru / a Cabriolet and it'll never happen
Maya: Sedans make you look so cool. Toyota Vios / Honda Civic
Vanilla: Well my lady you deserve the Volvo and the All New Honda Civic White... [twirls hair]
Ben: one day he'll be hitting people back with his Hyundai Avega but ends up crashing himself for picking shit cars
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